I think there is a misconception that people of faith (any faith) are blindly obedient to their leaders. While this does, in fact, happen, I don't believe that all faithfuls are 100% behind their beliefs 100% of the time. I know I'm not. But! I think this is normal and healthy. You grow from struggle. You learn from doubt. And so, I give you a little Oscar Wilde for your morning:
"To believe is very dull. To doubt is intensely engrossing. To be on the alert is to live, to be lulled into security is to die."Foster a bit of doubt. It might just renew your faith.